I'm so sorry

I don't know how to say it. Maybe say it in english helps me out. Like that, I can "hide" my mistakes. Erm, this is not very clear right? I'm so sorry i'm like that. But, I can't help it. I'd like to be that kind of girl who never tells those things to her beloved... You really don't deserve that. I wish I were perfect. Being able to control myself, for eating, for all of this things which ruins my whole life.

I love you, I want you to know it.